tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2930616910073993802024-02-19T01:41:01.034-06:00Slow Motion Roller CoasterMy Journey to Becoming a Mom.Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.comBlogger162125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-84259057874082997762012-10-17T08:14:00.002-05:002012-10-17T08:14:33.562-05:0035-Week Update
Yeesh! Once again, I had no idea how long it had been.
Oh, so much to update!
I was 26 weeks at the last official update. Now, 35, almost 36 weeks. Holy crap!
The last month and a half in particular have been quite the whirlwind. Lots going on at home, with family, at work, with baby.
Backing up to 29 weeks and what was supposed to have been my 28-week appointment (my doctor was Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-53624380672542034772012-08-30T21:52:00.002-05:002012-08-30T21:52:19.037-05:00Out of The Hubby's Mouth: It'll Just Work Out
I should probably be documenting more of The Hubby throughout this pregnancy because it's been a trip. He's been rather adorable about all things baby, if not a little lacking in the "hey, my wife is actually pregnant" department. He's been so excited to do the nursery (he's done practically the entire thing himself), he loves to go baby shopping. With me, he's very into telling me what I shouldAshleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-23649125437675145752012-08-24T11:52:00.001-05:002012-08-24T11:52:12.301-05:00Puppy Love
I've gotten asked a few times if I'm worried/scared about labor. I've discussed the subject with a few people. I really think the general consensus that I'm in denial or that the anxiety will come later. And this is all the subject of a future post.
The truth is I have one major anxiety about going into labor/being in labor.
And it has nothing to do with hospitals or pain or the unknown or Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-81230901430284672782012-08-13T21:41:00.003-05:002012-08-13T21:41:47.143-05:00The Lazy Blogger: 26 Week Bumpdate!
Eek! I really did not realize how long it had been!
No pictures or official update. I'm not making any promises to get back to that, but I will try!
First things first, anatomy scan on on 7/5 went great. Peanut looks absolutely perfect and was swimming around like a little fish. I will admit to having some pretty major anxiety leading up to the appointment. I'd thought I'd felt flutter here Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-64959477576269586822012-06-08T13:30:00.001-05:002012-06-08T13:30:44.166-05:00No Right to Complain
I have a ridiculously flexible job in terms of time off, start/leave time, flexiblity.
When the baby comes, I will be able to work from home two days a week for awhile. I have to ability to work at home if the baby is sick, so I don't have to use up my sick time or PTO if I don't want to. I can make up time in the evenings or weekend if I need to be out, come in late, or leave early.
I have a Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-72544851141342303482012-06-06T20:26:00.003-05:002012-06-06T20:26:56.393-05:0016 Week Bumpdate
Well, my belly is almost as big as my ass. That's something, right? This week, I just plain feel frumpy. I think I'm pretty close to "popping" (The Hubby seems convinced I have), but still so very in between.
So, funny (probably only to me) story about my bump pic outfit. The pants are my super, extra comfy yoga pants. I bought them the first month we started trying to Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-84507095135779071692012-05-30T19:15:00.002-05:002012-05-30T19:15:37.280-05:0015 Week Bumpdate
The picture quality is bad and I don't feel like fighting my computer to fix it. It hides the fact that I was not in a good mood, had not showered, and had on no makeup. You can still see the bump!
How far along? 15 weeks!!!
Weight gain/loss: Quite honestly, I've just sort of stopped looking. My scale seems to be a constant yo-yo, so I'm just not trying.
Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-199907234168299872012-05-23T20:34:00.002-05:002012-05-23T20:34:27.981-05:0014 Week Bumpdate
Not really much difference between last week and this.
How far along? 14 weeks!!!
Weight gain/loss: Going with right at 10 lbs. for the pregnancy. But, my stupid scale jumps around so much, it's so hard to tell.
Workout: Still managing 3 to 4 days. I've got a really good swimming routine down now that I'm really enjoying. I'm hoping start doing some of my Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-26898865722068295982012-05-23T20:22:00.003-05:002012-05-23T20:22:52.407-05:0013 Week Bumpdate
I'm choosing not to skip Week 13 despite being well into Week 14.
First, the bump:
Kind of blurry of the face. I saw a marked difference between week 12 and week 13. Now, a lot of it is still my fat being pushed up by my growing uterus (I can feel my uterus at the bottom of the "bump"), but a bump is a bump.
How far along? 13 weeks!!!
Weight gain/loss: Hard Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-74736330722705716372012-05-10T21:18:00.001-05:002012-05-10T21:18:54.641-05:00Beutiful NoiseA beautiful strong 154 bpm heartbeat.
There's a baby in there.
I really wasn't expecting it. It was so amazing.
Doctor said shout it from the rooftops. Of course, there were few people left to tell personally, but it's been done.
I know I keep saying it, but today was the day.
Today it feels real.
Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-39345755440889881222012-05-07T20:55:00.003-05:002012-05-07T20:55:48.522-05:0012 Week Bumpdate
By popular demand, the bump:
Worth the wait? Not so much. Still just a lot of bloat and, frankly, fat. And I'm really not being all "oh, I'm pregnant and it's making me fat." No, that's all on me. It's more about I really wish I'd been in better shape when I got pregnant. I'm disappointed in myself for not having been where I should have been. There really is a little Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-43696748320122414222012-05-02T18:04:00.001-05:002012-05-02T18:04:17.881-05:0011 Weeks (and Change): A Little Catching Up
Can we say behind on blogging? My apologies. I do not have access to the Blogger dashboard from my work computer at this time since they migrated to this new format (which is going to take a little getting used to). And, while I probably shouldn't do a lot of blogging at work, it was just easier than at home sometimes. So, now I am just going to make a point to carve out some time to get Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-64260764765717856522012-04-14T21:37:00.000-05:002012-04-14T21:37:13.712-05:00First AppointmentWay behind on this post, but a busy week and I developed a nasty little cold mid-week that's sort of knocked me off my feet.
Our first appointment was last Monday, at 8wks, 1d. And it couldn't have gone any better.
This was my first time seeing this doctor, on a recommendation from a good friend, and I could not be happier with my choice. She's super calming and understanding. And The Hubby Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-51076145138885026672012-04-02T09:59:00.001-05:002012-04-02T11:34:29.064-05:00Seven Week BumpdateHow far along? I can't believe I'm seven weeks!!
Weight gain/loss: No change from last week, which I'm looking at as a good thing!
Workout: Missed three workouts last week - two days of swimming and one BodyPump class. I'm okay with that decision. And I did skip today because I was just too damn tired. Plan for the week is to get my butt in bed on time every night so that I can get my butt outAshleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-90624644053786551482012-04-01T08:56:00.001-05:002012-04-01T09:06:37.187-05:00Life SaversSea bands. The only things remotely saving my sanity.
"Morning" sickness could certainly be worse. I have actually puked three times, but not bad at all. Mostly, it's just been the constant nausea and, a few times a day, horrible gagging and dry heaving.
I've got crackers. They help some. Ginger Ale has been a surprising hit with my taste buds. I try not to have an empty stomach.
But Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-83062009833735409942012-03-26T09:52:00.000-05:002012-03-26T09:52:19.850-05:00Six Week BumpdateHow far along? Six weeks and a day or two
Weight gain/loss: Just stepped on the scale to see another couple pounds up. I really don't see how. I AM eating a little more, but I'm still working out and some days, I really don't feel like I'm eating enough. Time to start counting calories more closely.
Workout: Managed five days last week, including kickboxing on Saturday. Have a feeling I'm Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-47770874020103080022012-03-22T13:51:00.000-05:002012-03-22T13:51:07.262-05:00Pregnancy after InfertilityEven typing out that title causes odd anxiety for me.
I've had issues with my own IF struggle, mostly since our diagnosis of unexplained. It's something I struggled with and still do. Logically, I know that not having a specific diagnosis and not going through treatments does not make me any less of an IF struggler. But, I've always felt in some ways "less" than the couples who have dealt with Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-21678992596809377612012-03-19T10:23:00.000-05:002012-03-19T10:23:06.685-05:005 Week BumpdateThe sheer excitement to start this weekly update is indescribable.
No bump picture this week, for obvious reasons. I think there is the smallest bit of bloat going on the evenings, obviously nothing else. And I have no interest in taking a picture of my currently flabby belly.
How far along? 5 weeks and a day or so (really wishing I'd been charting to I knew my exact O date; oh, well)
Weight Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-32225350701851483462012-03-17T22:55:00.001-05:002012-03-17T22:55:54.459-05:0014As of tonight, 14 is the number of people we have told.
That is an insanely large number for five weeks.
When we started this journey so long ago, I was adamant that no one know before the end of first trimester.
I was also adamant that know one know we were trying.
Ha!
I had decided many months ago that keeping the secret was no longer as appealing as it once was. Going through IF, and having Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-59004933570802755632012-03-14T14:44:00.000-05:002012-03-14T14:44:44.693-05:00Anatomy of a BFPFirst things first, I have to thank the lovely ladies who commented on the picture of my two beautiful lines and offered their congratulations and love. I have never met any of you, but I want to hug each and every one of you because you are important to me in ways you will never know.
How was this THE cycle? I honestly haven't got a clue.
I could type out a play-by-play, but I don't feel likeAshleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-76008183723339622072012-03-13T13:14:00.001-05:002012-03-13T13:14:21.687-05:00Two Beautiful LinesAshleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-57301027662208100652012-03-12T14:27:00.000-05:002012-03-12T14:27:10.881-05:00"Blessed""Blessed"
"Hey you, you're a child in my head
You haven't walked yet
Your first words have yet to be said
But I swear you'll be blessed
I know you're still just a dream
your eyes might be green
Or the bluest that I've ever seen
Anyway you'll be blessed
And you, you'll be blessed
You'll have the best
I promise you that
I'll pick a star from the sky
Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that, Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-40043880735766536902012-01-27T12:37:00.000-06:002012-01-27T12:37:52.062-06:00Just Not Feeling ItWe've never taken a break cycle. Not once in over two years.
There have been cycles where things happened - timing wasn't going to work, illness - but even then, we had at least a shot. And we did put forth an effort for that one shot.
But, I'm not sure I have the effort in me this cycle.
And I don't feel that bad about it.
I'm in this place right now where it's just not happening and I feel Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-47502699417630909302012-01-19T11:24:00.000-06:002012-01-19T11:24:51.255-06:00Thank God for Exercise EndorphinsThat's the only real explanation I've got right now.
I was pretty okay through the first bit of spotting. But, still I played head games with myself all day yesterday because the spotting went away. But, by the time I was getting ready for my warm bath last night and the cramps had amped up, I was prepared for what I saw. I took my bath and talked myself down from a breakdown.
Then, I went Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-293061691007399380.post-91017260809856816082012-01-17T14:48:00.000-06:002012-01-17T14:48:12.581-06:00Just Getting It Out ThereI need these thoughts out of my head.
Body, can you please quit screwing with my mind.
Mind, can you please stop reading into things.
For the love of God, I want to be a sane person again.
CD28. That's all I've got. No charting for me, so best I can go off of is CM. I O'd anywhere from CD13 to CD16; I'm guessing CD15. That would put me at 13DPO.
But, I can't go by that.
All I can Ashleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14100897937686850284noreply@blogger.com0